If You come into my heart

<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/11509609?origin\x3dhttp://eternallyrestless.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

I would run I would fly

if you come into my heart

profile tagboard affiliates archives

Hey. This is where I express my thoughts and feelings. Feel free to leave if you don't like it. :D

this is me)

Tuesday, March 09, 2010 / 7:50 PM

Major Upsets and Life Lessons...

I've had some major ups and downs today.

I think I realised a lot of things in my life that I was missing.

And what I should be doing.

At the same time, I think I lost some of myself too.

I watched Alice in Wonderland today. Alone.

But that's how I meant it.

Luckily I didn't watch it in 3D.

It's not the stuff of sweet dreams and romance.

Rather a dark and fascinatingly morbid interpretation of Alice.

While watching it, I felt like I was watching a nightmare and a dream at the same time.

But...

I realised that you should strive to be yourself.

Even if you are afraid to be yourself sometimes.

And that if you take a leap into the unknown,

have courage.

♥

I also visited my aunts today.

To drop by and give a surprise present.

Followed one of my aunts to Giant on my way home.

Where I think I lost the money she gave me.

She gave me (no, entrusted) me with $50 to top up my EZ-link.

Since I wasn't working yet.

I slipped the folded note into my back pocket in a hurry.

But later I forgot about it and only remembered when I pulled out my wallet at home.

By the time it was gone.

GONE.

omfg.

I ran back from my house to Giant, where I thought I dropped it.

Not there.

Outside the bubble tea shop.

Not there.

Hell, I'm not even sure where and when I lost it.

I was ready to burst into tears.

It's not some money I earned by myself, which I would have been sad.

But not as sad as money that someone gave me

and entrusted me to carry out a purpose.

I can't replace that.

Even if I replace the money with my own,

it won't feel the same.

After that, feeling dejected, I did the thing which I wanted to do since yesterday.

I cut my hair.

My so-called precious hair.

I wanted a change.

no.

I NEEDED to change.

But I felt better afterwards.

I know my reason for losing the money now.

God has made me realise,

has given a sign that

I need to change.

I need to start living my life.

This loss is to remind me that I need to change.

Get my life back.

The money was not meant to stay with me,

but give me a reminder...

a lesson.

You can't take life for granted and blindly accept what you have.

Sometimes you lose.

But you gotta make the best out of it.

God, I hope I'll be on my way.

To a better path.

"I could run, I could fly

If You Came Into My Heart"

- " If You Came Into My Heart" MBLAQ

Music Playlist at MixPod.com