I've got my package already! Yay!

I've got to tell you, I was so excited when I received the receipt to go collect the item yesterday. Usually for registered items, they send it to your house. Since I wasn't home (I just missed it by an hour, DANG.), I had to go pick it up the next day, which is today. I was so revved up about it. The receipt was like a Golden Ticket. The anticipation of getting something was overwhelming. I literally rushed from HTECH to the post office near my house. So exciting.

The two boxes containing my items.

I love this shot so much. <3

In this pic, it looks pretty dull...

...but I still like the golden angel heart better.

Though I'm not that jazzed about the clasp on my devil heart chain. It's abit wonky. Plus, my excitement deflated a lil' when I saw how tiny the pendant were. I half expected it to be as big as my ASMAMA wing ring, if not, slightly smaller. @_@

oh well, I like the design anyways... ;D

I love watching Tae Wang Sa Shin Gi, also known as The Legend. It's such a sad story, really. The soundtrack blows my mind. So haunting and melancholic, yearning at the same time. I'm practically doing lyrical dance in my head. Well, not me, but of other people dancing to the song. The way it flows...*_*

I'm caught in between Damdeok & Sujini and Cheoro & Sujini. I just love Sujini, she's strong, compassionate and...I don't know how to describe it. She deserves a good pairing. I'm rooting for her all the way!!!

The poem above is about Cheoro's feelings for Sujini, or Sujini's for Damdeok. Unrequited love. I feel sad looking at them. Oh well. Life is life.

My top list of lovely items



1. Pocket watch from ASMAMA

You gotta admit this is gorgeous...I ordered from them before ( Angel Wing Ring) and they seriously give good quality. You pay for what you get. This is out of my price range, but I can dream, can't I?

2. Angel & Devil Heart Pendants

I have ordered this already. A pair, in the exact same colour and design as this pair. IN love with this one definitely.

3. Maori-inspired curliques pendants

This inspires so much feeling from me.

4. Curlique ring pendant

5. Curlique message pendant

I have always been a sucker for curliques like these. The message is kinda cute too.

6. Northern Star pendant

7. Northern Star Cherish pendants

This is classic. The feeling it evokes is overwhelming. The Northern Star guides you and the ones you cherish.

8. Angel & Devil figurine pendants

This is cheesy but still cute in a way. But, not my style.

9. Angel & Devil Wing Cross pendant

This is nice too but I can't wear a cross and I don't really care much for them. It would look good on other people though.

10. Carousel pendants

This is seriously cute. So whimsical.

11. Metamorphose embossed logo bag

I like this bag. So stylish, so functional.

hehehhe...smexy...XD


Ordered my fangs already. Haven't paid yet. I ordered F2 which was the natural fangs. There were other interesting models but what would I need them for? hehehe....

The subtle sterling one is also cool but I think I'll stick with the natural.

"And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive "

The song Iris by Goo Goo Dolls is playing on my mp3 right now. I'm feeling low again. No surprise there. I feel so alone and dumb. Bitchy and inferior. A whole host of conflicting feelings. I guess you're no stranger to hearing this from me time and time again.

Every phase feels the same, yet different in a way. I'm talking riddles now. haha. Sometimes, I just think...I must be crazy. Could I feel this way and yet be sane? Still, it is said that sometimes, the ones that are sane are the one that feel they're crazy.

I feel like my life is just another surrealistic movie or dream.

See you on the other side then.

cheers.

Well, I'm back from Cosfest. Actually, I was back ages ago. Half a week now. lols.

The plan was to meet at 8 at Downtown East. Crazy right? Then it changed to 11:30, which was a much more reasonable timing. I reached there very early. 1 hour before the stated timing. Met hotart who was coincidentally also on the same bus. We waited for goodness knows how long. Met Naoki at around 12 plus. Waited some more. They came quite late, the whole bunch of them. Nevermind. Then they took ages to get ready. I literally spent hours in the toilet. Just waiting. @_@

We only got ready at about 4 plus and went to walk around. I won't go into the detail but though it was quite (and by that I mean SUPER) boring. Towards the end, it was quite fun cos' by then we all had gone crazy and wacky. Especially me. Our group spontaneously doing the caramelldansen in the middle of nowhere. hahaha.

Anyways, left the tent at about 7 to go meet up with the GE team at Teasire Cafe. Man, that cafe was expensive. I only ordered an iced lemon tea with my remaining $3.50. *sob* Anyhoo, the meeting was fun, finally got to meet the people behind the names. We actually got a whole load of things going but had to cut it short because it was already so late. I'm looking forward to the next outing!

Here be the pics!

(there're all VK cos' I'm a narcissist. cheyyy. Well, there were other good cosplays but I'm too excited about my first "official" event. *I don't count EOY*)

I LOVE this shot the best.Though I wish the day class could have squeezed in more.

This one is including the other VK cos-ers we met, since we didn't have a Zero.

I feel so restless. So out of my league. So down.

I've been reflecting on myself for ages but never really did what was necessary to change. I think I'm too scared to change, yet scared as well what would happen if i did not.

I feel uncomfortable even in my own skin. I think I'm a fool sometimes, for thinking what I've been thinking in my head. I don't know if my head is screwed on right, cos' lately I don't know what the heck is going on with myself. The blues are back.

I keep analysing myself, over and over again. Thinking about what I've done. Wrong or right. Mostly wrong, I guess.

I feel wrong. I feel isolated even in a crowded room. Like I'm not really here. Or if I'm here, that I'm the big white dumass elephant. Maybe that's too harsh a phrase. More like, a stranger. I don't feel connected anymore.

If my time comes, would all that God has given me be naught? Have I wasted my life on mere frivolities...when I don't even deserve to waste it?

This sounds really depressing, isn't it? It's more depressing when you have to feel this way everyday. I'm not saying I'm suicidal, or emo, or whatever shit you're thinking now, sitting at the computer reading this. I'm saying I lost touch with the world and life.

Oh, God.