If You come into my heart

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if you come into my heart

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Friday, July 04, 2008 / 1:00 PM

I feel so restless. So out of my league. So down.

I've been reflecting on myself for ages but never really did what was necessary to change. I think I'm too scared to change, yet scared as well what would happen if i did not.

I feel uncomfortable even in my own skin. I think I'm a fool sometimes, for thinking what I've been thinking in my head. I don't know if my head is screwed on right, cos' lately I don't know what the heck is going on with myself. The blues are back.

I keep analysing myself, over and over again. Thinking about what I've done. Wrong or right. Mostly wrong, I guess.

I feel wrong. I feel isolated even in a crowded room. Like I'm not really here. Or if I'm here, that I'm the big white dumass elephant. Maybe that's too harsh a phrase. More like, a stranger. I don't feel connected anymore.

If my time comes, would all that God has given me be naught? Have I wasted my life on mere frivolities...when I don't even deserve to waste it?

This sounds really depressing, isn't it? It's more depressing when you have to feel this way everyday. I'm not saying I'm suicidal, or emo, or whatever shit you're thinking now, sitting at the computer reading this. I'm saying I lost touch with the world and life.

Oh, God.

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