Saturday, August 19, 2006 / 1:34 AM
Yeah, it's late. But I feel the need to write. And do my last-minute Chem papers. sigh. I've been thinking of "paying back" my puasa. Puasa is almost upon us and I haven't "paid back" yet. I feel like I'm cheating myself. I am not so religious but I want to be. You know, like to live my life really and fully as a Muslim. I kinda feel guilty cos' everytime I want to start, it seems hard for me. I'm sharing a privete and personal thing, you have to understand. I could have made my thoughts private but I feel better when I feel like I'm writing to someone, not a computer. I can't take this guilt. It's overwhelming. If I die before I can repent, I will die a sinner and I am afraid of what is to come...

